January Monday, 10th, 2011

Woke up slowly, peacefully, I did not feel that tired. Past my bed time early morning did i sleep, but there was a quietness in my soul. Only Praise the Lord the day before, even the day before that i felt nervousness. With my stomach in a fear knotted lump i waited in anticipation. But this morning when i woke up, the peace from the Spirit, woke me up. Breakfast at 7:00am. Mickey had a cool story about being called. called to act in so instead of sit around. called to sacrifice. But not in so many words. He told me about action. This cool story set a common pattern of today, as I listened to a sermon from New Life (the church i have down here, with pastor Dan), he talked about action, how we pray to ask God to change our neighborhoods, but we might be the person with that mission. How we have to open our eyes, hearts and fight in the spirit (another sermon by Louie Gigilo , talked about the battle is not of the flesh, and we are called to be IN THE WORLD, BUT NOT OF THE WORLD... how the battle is not of the flesh...)  "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms."http://bible.cc/ephesians/6-12.htm
Ephesians 6:12
but when we open our eyes and fight in the spirit, it calls us to action. We must step out of our comfort zone and fulfill our mission. The Lord uses the people that He chooses, and how when we are in a situation it is because He wants to use us.


This has not been the only thing on my mind today, nor the only theme.
<*>Nehemiah 4
<*>Philippians 4
<*>Ephesians 2
<*>1 Corinthians 7
<*>2 Corinthians 7


Honestly, I realize I need to stop judging. and picking things apart. This is a hard truth to come to. At times I feel like I should say something, but now I wonder if it is my place. This struggle may be one of my many thorns that I have in my side. After several months of pondering... I am left with the same struggle.
I know we are called to love. This too I strive after, to love. But if we correct in love is it our place? Or is it not?
Love is patience love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast it holds no record of wrong, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered; love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. " 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres." http://niv.scripturetext.com/1_corinthians/13.htm
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
If we follow the word as our guidance for love, then should it be OK to correct in love? or is it still wrong?


At times I desire to take a vow of silence for my words frustrate me. My mind replays the things I say. 
Like I said these things, my thoughts, are recent and reoccurring. A weird thought but.. is it bad to desire not to see or speak? These things two things I at times do not want. TO be blind more than I am with out glasses and see only color, so that you can not judge. But it saddens me that I might be unable to read it also might be complicated and frustrating, but then it would force me to get over it and accept the inability. OK my sight is not as much my struggle, but the tongue is truly and evil thing or is it? It can bless one minute and curse the next. But does that make it evil? Out of the mouth comes the thoughts of the heart. Then my human heart is what is evil.... it would be nice to silence it. We are only supposed to speak with uplifting words, but uplifting words are not the ones the ones that eagerly speed out. I want a week. A week of no talking. I want to silence the evil. But project the good.  GRR ! This frustrates me. Anyways... today has been an Amazing day, my first class only lasted about 25 minutes, and then i got to work and also relaxed some.. (did some reading... not helping slow thoughts tho..) went to my second class met two new people, and i am done for the day.. or at least done with attending classes, Goal to work out at 4:00 with Shae , go to dinner at Whitehurst with Kimberly, and CRASH tonight at 8 then home, more H.W. read and sleepzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. 


I also reviewed Japanese a little bit today (:P)
next time i will try to be more brief. sorry (8\)
next time i will try to be brief sorry (8\)
My love goes out to you all, and I miss home and my friends/family there. 
although I miss you I know this is where I have to be (for the time being)
Keep in touch;keep in prayer; keep me updated. :D
CHECK OUT ARITHMETIC- BY BROOKE
Its one of her older ones but i like it and i was doing math while listening to it :) you should do math too !! ( : ))  (: D)

OR THE LINK
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJHa9yVgEHg&feature=related