Have you ever gotten up and not looked in the mirror
A mirror
the portal to our sought out worth
out reflection
of both inside and out
have you been secure enough to go
go with out looking
just one day...
yes?
What about a week?
its an addiction
whether we like what we see or not
we begin looking a lot
a lot, looking for who we are
no?
then looking just to know... ?
what
if we are OK ..
if we aren't a mess...
if yes? then what is the rest
does it matter how we look
truly does it matter.
" I knew you before i formed you in your mothers womb" -Jeremiah 1:5
"you are fearfully and wonderfully made"- Psalms 139:14
but...
there is always a but...
do i look good TODAY???
Finding our identities in a reflection,
our approval through another's eyes
i want to be satisfied
satisfied in truth
not lies,
not manipulations, not reflections
i want to see how i look though God's eyes
can you take a week?
a week with out vanity,
with out pride
take a week
maybe even 3 days with out
looking
seeking
finding your identity in a
mirror.
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when you take this challenge you will soon find how difficult it is to follow.
not checking if your hair is frizzed, or if a zit came out,
no color coordinating, or do i look fat,
sad part is you notice how many ways that you can find an alternative mirror,
reflections off of glass.... shadows... even camera lenses. its sad .. how.. how addicted i am on my reflection.
the mirror
most of our self consciousness is lying in the mirror.
our thoughts use the mirror to show us whats wrong, or vainly, whats "right"
with our the mirror we can focus on our real lives, the one in the real world, not the appearances
our inner reflection, security, and hope
its hard. I think even become an idol. its hard NOT to look.
WHAT a DIFFICULT challenge!
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
About 10/14/2010
Started as an encouraging day. Trynna live the way, the way He wants me to. Then comes history, and things started getting out of hand (in my heart).
Study session, with a tired mind equals little progress.
Rain begins to pour, I have to walk home, got my trash bag out to cover my book bag.
Took an hour nap. Woke up to sunshine, i didn't know the sun came until i was all dressed for rain and went outside.... no longer did i need the decked out rain gear.
Study session part two. bigger group, same thing... Asian history.
I was distracted. worse this time. my friend was there. I am used to hard core studying ... it just wasn't cracking down this time. All day i kept dropping note cards by accident, hit my heard on something hard. starting to feel worse. embarrassed by jokes. eating ones. (which i usually am embarrassed by anyways). My friend was there, also that person was there too. too close. too strong. just trying to resist and concentrate. later. ...
my friend and i play soccer, grabbed up two more people equals four people.
played in a tennis court. i should have been studying...
switched tennis court, and then an accident... (that person was watching, watching me)
while trying to get the ball before one of my friends, i kept running, and bumped in to her (usually like when i play with Carlos and Ivan (miss them along with my other friends) ) she fell, i was surprised and on top of that my whole actions were slow that day, my brain was not functioning. she hit her head.
I couldn't believe what i did.
i couldn't believe i could be so oblivious and clumsy. i hurt one of my close close friends at ODU.
hurt and mad, she needed time.
i didn't know what to do.
thats when that person, that person began to talk to me.
at first i didnt pay attention to who, just took it as my own.
CLUMSY,
NO GOOD,
BAD AT EVERYTHING
HORRIBLE,
SELFISH,
UNTALENTED,
NO GOOD
NO GOOD
KLUTZ
EMBARRASSMENT
NO WORTH
Just: RUN, RUN , RUN, RUN.....
I wanted to run, hard core work out SO hard, create a pain then become numb.
i wanted my tears to freeze my face,
i couldnt belive, what i did.
my friend was there,
i cant cry in front of him.
turn around to wipe my eyes, then fight back the trash bags,
not only that i began to mentally cut my self.
while the other voice inside told me, give it up, you have worth, give it up, dont run, just give it up, stop, and give it up.
i kept hearing the old voice saying ULGY, EW! UGLY, NO GOOD, UGLY, WORSE THAN BEFORE,
i just looked down and focused on the ball,
each passed ball piled another heap of insults, inner cuts begin to reopen scars, scars which were just healed.
the three people with me are hungry,
my hurt friend, she reconciles, but i cant help it, that weight pushes further, the knife continues to cut, i try to hand the knife over like the 'other person' told be to but i cant, the person watching continues to laugh and bat at me with words.
dinner,
not hungry,
CLUMSY,
UGLY,
NO GOOD,
ALL IS FAULT
i wanted to curl up in a corner and sleep till eternity.
later,
math is completed, tired, but cant sleep, i want to be nice for once today i dont want to cause problems, i need to read anyways,
i go into the hall to study my bible, read my devotions,
its about betrayal,
somthing that has passed everyone at least once.. i begin to think,
i feel like i am a betrayer like Gollum, or Judas, weaker than Peter at night.
more distractions appear.
I am so tired.
i am so tired
mentally,
spiritually,
im so tired. i thought that i was getting recharged, untill i become distracted.
like in the lifehouse skit,
i wanted to take the thing i know i dont want.
vanity sets in, as a compliment is thrown,
i wanted it ,
i wanted to believe it,
vanity was another form that has no hope it can be taken away by the one who gave it to you, and your thrown on the floor,
this game was being played,
i needed to sleep.
i talk to my brother, through a text. its hard to respond, because i feel like i cant talk right now my head is soo messed up. so i kept it scriptural, i know i need to respond. Carlo texts me i feel bad because i am drained. he notices, but i can't explain, i cant think, i was using all my energy to try and concentrate on my devotionals (which wasn't easy) my legs go numb,.
finally i went back into my room.
tried to go to sleep.
AFTERMATH ,,, i am not sure about now. i want to cry... but where .. ? there isnt a place... i want to go to someone and cry... i cant with out distractions occurring.
i want i hope i long. for comfort, no to cry. i want this YUCKY-ness inside of me out. LORD please HELP!
911 call for blood.
i am bleeding its black, i need to have it white again
i need it to be clear, crystal clear white. flowing through me like water.
12May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. 13May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.
I want to say:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nnwz3xx_yGs&feature=related
Study session, with a tired mind equals little progress.
Rain begins to pour, I have to walk home, got my trash bag out to cover my book bag.
Took an hour nap. Woke up to sunshine, i didn't know the sun came until i was all dressed for rain and went outside.... no longer did i need the decked out rain gear.
Study session part two. bigger group, same thing... Asian history.
I was distracted. worse this time. my friend was there. I am used to hard core studying ... it just wasn't cracking down this time. All day i kept dropping note cards by accident, hit my heard on something hard. starting to feel worse. embarrassed by jokes. eating ones. (which i usually am embarrassed by anyways). My friend was there, also that person was there too. too close. too strong. just trying to resist and concentrate. later. ...
my friend and i play soccer, grabbed up two more people equals four people.
played in a tennis court. i should have been studying...
switched tennis court, and then an accident... (that person was watching, watching me)
while trying to get the ball before one of my friends, i kept running, and bumped in to her (usually like when i play with Carlos and Ivan (miss them along with my other friends) ) she fell, i was surprised and on top of that my whole actions were slow that day, my brain was not functioning. she hit her head.
I couldn't believe what i did.
i couldn't believe i could be so oblivious and clumsy. i hurt one of my close close friends at ODU.
hurt and mad, she needed time.
i didn't know what to do.
thats when that person, that person began to talk to me.
at first i didnt pay attention to who, just took it as my own.
CLUMSY,
NO GOOD,
BAD AT EVERYTHING
HORRIBLE,
SELFISH,
UNTALENTED,
NO GOOD
NO GOOD
KLUTZ
EMBARRASSMENT
NO WORTH
Just: RUN, RUN , RUN, RUN.....
I wanted to run, hard core work out SO hard, create a pain then become numb.
i wanted my tears to freeze my face,
i couldnt belive, what i did.
my friend was there,
i cant cry in front of him.
turn around to wipe my eyes, then fight back the trash bags,
not only that i began to mentally cut my self.
while the other voice inside told me, give it up, you have worth, give it up, dont run, just give it up, stop, and give it up.
i kept hearing the old voice saying ULGY, EW! UGLY, NO GOOD, UGLY, WORSE THAN BEFORE,
i just looked down and focused on the ball,
each passed ball piled another heap of insults, inner cuts begin to reopen scars, scars which were just healed.
the three people with me are hungry,
my hurt friend, she reconciles, but i cant help it, that weight pushes further, the knife continues to cut, i try to hand the knife over like the 'other person' told be to but i cant, the person watching continues to laugh and bat at me with words.
dinner,
not hungry,
CLUMSY,
UGLY,
NO GOOD,
ALL IS FAULT
i wanted to curl up in a corner and sleep till eternity.
later,
math is completed, tired, but cant sleep, i want to be nice for once today i dont want to cause problems, i need to read anyways,
i go into the hall to study my bible, read my devotions,
its about betrayal,
somthing that has passed everyone at least once.. i begin to think,
i feel like i am a betrayer like Gollum, or Judas, weaker than Peter at night.
more distractions appear.
I am so tired.
i am so tired
mentally,
spiritually,
im so tired. i thought that i was getting recharged, untill i become distracted.
like in the lifehouse skit,
i wanted to take the thing i know i dont want.
vanity sets in, as a compliment is thrown,
i wanted it ,
i wanted to believe it,
vanity was another form that has no hope it can be taken away by the one who gave it to you, and your thrown on the floor,
this game was being played,
i needed to sleep.
i talk to my brother, through a text. its hard to respond, because i feel like i cant talk right now my head is soo messed up. so i kept it scriptural, i know i need to respond. Carlo texts me i feel bad because i am drained. he notices, but i can't explain, i cant think, i was using all my energy to try and concentrate on my devotionals (which wasn't easy) my legs go numb,.
finally i went back into my room.
tried to go to sleep.
AFTERMATH ,,, i am not sure about now. i want to cry... but where .. ? there isnt a place... i want to go to someone and cry... i cant with out distractions occurring.
i want i hope i long. for comfort, no to cry. i want this YUCKY-ness inside of me out. LORD please HELP!
911 call for blood.
i am bleeding its black, i need to have it white again
i need it to be clear, crystal clear white. flowing through me like water.
1 Thessalonians 3
12May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you. 13May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones.
I want to say:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nnwz3xx_yGs&feature=related
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
10/6/10 night
Well... tonight... being a Wednesday night meant we had small group bible study (i <3 my new sisters! ), but what was really cool was that I was supposed to meet up with my language partner (who is very sweet and Japanese!) for dinner. So in order to incorporate the eating with the small groups (brother & sister) meant that i would introduce them to my language partner. The night went over well praise the LORD!! and Mami (my language partner) came to small group with us. She said she understood some words but not most, i am praying that the LORD will reveal His message to her so that she can understand and know. :) THIS ISS SSOO COOOLL!!
UPDAT3 UPDAT3 ( ii r3m3mb3r wh3n ii us3d 2 tlk liik3 thiis!! :P)
UPDAT3 UPDAT3 ( ii r3m3mb3r wh3n ii us3d 2 tlk liik3 thiis!! :P)
10/6/2010
Today on my way back from class there was this man on the corner of the street who looked like he was older than 50. At first I wondered who was this man and what was he doing, then he asked me a question and handed me something. A little green and black book was passed to me as he asked if i would like to take a bible, i grinned and said thank you. It was such an inspiration to see purpose and action along with dedication. Norfolk this morning was cold and windy outside, yet that Sir was out side on the corner of W.49th Street and was handing out bibles early in the morning!!!
wow!! PRAISE JESUS!! FOR IF WE ARE SILENT EVEN THE ROCKS WILL CRY OUT!
Once again i am reminded of my purpose... what i am trying to figure out is .... HOW?
New favorite song!! its SOOO DEEP!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbH0IWZL05s&list=QL&feature=BF
I refuse By: Josh wilson
89.9 played this song today... which reminded me even more that we have our purpose which we need to fufill!!~ and also yesterday i read
wow!! PRAISE JESUS!! FOR IF WE ARE SILENT EVEN THE ROCKS WILL CRY OUT!
Once again i am reminded of my purpose... what i am trying to figure out is .... HOW?
New favorite song!! its SOOO DEEP!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbH0IWZL05s&list=QL&feature=BF
I refuse By: Josh wilson
89.9 played this song today... which reminded me even more that we have our purpose which we need to fufill!!~ and also yesterday i read
Romans 12:6-8 (New International Version)
6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his[a]faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+12:6-8&version=NIV
praise the LORD!!!!! FOR HE IS GOOD! AND WORTHY OF OUR PRAISE!
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+12:6-8&version=NIV
praise the LORD!!!!! FOR HE IS GOOD! AND WORTHY OF OUR PRAISE!
Friday, September 24, 2010
Sept. 24th 2010
Its Friday!Retreat today! Praise the LORD! Its a gorgeous day! He gives me strength to carry on, when this life is difficult. But even on the good days, even on the bad; I will keep praising ! I need to keep praising! I must keep praising! For His words are on my lips. I want to sing and dance. His words give me strength, more than i can ask. He shows me the beautiful unique things in this world of His. If i keep praising i know I will always find my way home. To His and His alone, does my heart belong! ~*~<3~*~
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Sept. 21, 2010: night class
Tonight I had my public speaking class, and I was shaking. Praise the Lord that I was able to do it, with out a complete failure. I also read about purity today and am relearning how (just like Lon Solomon's sermon Sunday) we can be blind to sexual sin. Which is so true, even if we notice most things, we can deceive ourselves thinking that as long as we "know" nothing will happen, yet we play with the match saying it won't light. I realized that Eros : (Greek word) the passion that attacks us
is one of the most deceiving types of "love" and is the type of "love" that is talked about in movies, stories, novels, etc.
Phieo on the other hand, is love based on something common (like friends and a struggle partner)
Then there is the ultimate and most true kind of love : Agape, which is unconditional love (that only can be made perfect by God. )
What kind of love do you exhibit the most? What kind of love do you seek? Do you even want love, or would you rather have respect? What is the longing in the heart? For love or purpose? Is purpose equivalent to love?
is one of the most deceiving types of "love" and is the type of "love" that is talked about in movies, stories, novels, etc.
Phieo on the other hand, is love based on something common (like friends and a struggle partner)
Then there is the ultimate and most true kind of love : Agape, which is unconditional love (that only can be made perfect by God. )
What kind of love do you exhibit the most? What kind of love do you seek? Do you even want love, or would you rather have respect? What is the longing in the heart? For love or purpose? Is purpose equivalent to love?
Response to Sanazcita's : friends, family attachments, detachments.
p.s sweetie this is totally normal !! :) but we are family, not the high school "brother" , "sister" thing... but in Christ and also the way one shares life, thoughts, and years of life creates a bond that can surpass the distance. Yea at the moment there can be people who "replace" the time slot in the a life, yet can never "replace" the mark left or cut the string attached through bonding moments. If when the reunion comes back the person has changed, the attachment comes with a sense of stating and pointing out the change visa-versa. As long as we are family in Christ, we will all ways have that in common and will always have that spot in each others lives. Missing friends is hard, communication halt is difficult, but in the end we will be reunited. The remembrance of a friend stays hidden yet lives. Memories are the form of taking a friend and putting the essence of joy and excitement into thoughts that we reflect upon, in reality they aren't gone.
<3 Lots and miss you. = secure in Christ, like in marriage, the triangle: seek the LORD and as the two seek, they will be joined with Christ together!
Ecclesiastes 4:12 "...a chord of three is not quickly broken."
<3 Lots and miss you. = secure in Christ, like in marriage, the triangle: seek the LORD and as the two seek, they will be joined with Christ together!
Ecclesiastes 4:12 "...a chord of three is not quickly broken."
P.S: this is me trying to be encouraging :P .. and i couldn't comment on your page (because the blog doesn't like me :]*~ <3*~<3*~<3~~*
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Goodnight. 11:22pm 9/12/10
30 A cheerful look brings joy to the heart,
and good news gives health to the bones.
and good news gives health to the bones.
31 He who listens to a life-giving rebuke
will be at home among the wise.
will be at home among the wise.
32 He who ignores discipline despises himself,
but whoever heeds correction gains understanding.
but whoever heeds correction gains understanding.
33 The fear of the LORD teaches a man wisdom, [f]
and humility comes before honor.
and humility comes before honor.
Proverbs 15:30-33
Although I have been really bad on updating this blog, for which I am sorry, I am putting this bible verse (part) which I read tonight.
Today I went with a friend from inter-varsity to church. It was similar to McLean Bible Church and felt so good to praise the LORD! I miss everyone while being yet reminded that my ministry field is ODU/(Norfolk)at the moment. I hope all of you are being built up in Christ, and constantly reminded of your call that the LORD has for you, today-at this time- at this place in your life. Keep in the faith and "...stand firm.Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the LORD, because you know that your labor in the LORD is not in vain." 1 Corinthians 15:58
Signing off~
Raquelita~<3 Goodnight take care and God bless. Let us continue to pray for our brothers and sisters, country, and the light to shine through us.
Oh and prayer requests???
let me know so i can be praying!! <3 !!
Also keep in prayer my mother, her feet are worsening.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
new, new, new, and more new, college beggining
honestly, college feels weird. especially the first day, i couldn't yet accept it while also feeling left at a new place , trapped. I miss my family, friends, even life style.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
allnighter, last farewell, before college. 4:49 am aug.26.2010
How many times i have thought about this day,
this time
this moment in my life
when i was young i used to feel as though this day would never come
but sooner or later
gotta
face
reality
the LORD brought me all this way
and by His grace i am moving to a new place
alive
hopeful
yet secure in His arms
i know he will never let me fall
although i do not know what lies ahead of me
i know he has a plan
a plan for good
to prosper
for a hope and a future
like it says in Jeremiah 29:11
my family
my friends
my comfortable zone
in a snug little place called reston.
but no longer is this my place
instead its some where distant
my brothers and sisters in Christ are so encouraging
i can't help but know i will miss them
you,
all
but i know that ODU is my new call
can't hesitate anymore
in a couple hours its off to the open road,
3, almost 4 hours
until the finish line
no
the next step
in the story of my life
i have learned a lot and grown even more
but know what is
what was
is
different.
but in that way i will grow more than before
having only ONE constant
one HOPE
one TRUE love
who brings me the best of best
my HUGE family
THANK you LORD for your grace and how much you have blessed me
these 18 years of comfort-ability
and safety
continue to guide my friends and bless them
their families
network
friends.
continue to guide our hearts till we meet again
when ever your plan is
ready
set
go
we are off to continue this life show
of our stories
not an end
but a beginning
this time
this moment in my life
when i was young i used to feel as though this day would never come
but sooner or later
gotta
face
reality
the LORD brought me all this way
and by His grace i am moving to a new place
alive
hopeful
yet secure in His arms
i know he will never let me fall
although i do not know what lies ahead of me
i know he has a plan
a plan for good
to prosper
for a hope and a future
like it says in Jeremiah 29:11
my family
my friends
my comfortable zone
in a snug little place called reston.
but no longer is this my place
instead its some where distant
my brothers and sisters in Christ are so encouraging
i can't help but know i will miss them
you,
all
but i know that ODU is my new call
can't hesitate anymore
in a couple hours its off to the open road,
3, almost 4 hours
until the finish line
no
the next step
in the story of my life
i have learned a lot and grown even more
but know what is
what was
is
different.
but in that way i will grow more than before
having only ONE constant
one HOPE
one TRUE love
who brings me the best of best
my HUGE family
THANK you LORD for your grace and how much you have blessed me
these 18 years of comfort-ability
and safety
continue to guide my friends and bless them
their families
network
friends.
continue to guide our hearts till we meet again
when ever your plan is
ready
set
go
we are off to continue this life show
of our stories
not an end
but a beginning
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Saturday, August 21st 2010 : Vacation part 1- nicaragusen!
-While in Nicaragua I felt a short dejavu of when I was moving from 7th grade into 8th... only this time I was 6 years older. Being in Nicaragua reminded me how much i missed Latino culture, yet also reviled things that I didn't notice before such as :
~the Political corruption
~Actual demands of serving (and the patience it requires)
~how good it feels to ride on the back of a truck
~how dangerous the streets of Managua can be
~'the danger zone' and my nievity'...
The current corrupt political situation made me realize that I wanted to do something to change the government(for like the 1st time). It reminded me of North Korea when I saw how similar the manipulation tactics of the president(GRR!!). Through giant billboards with the presidents face( each with its own camera)(I LOOKED BECAUSE I WANTED TO PAINT IT BLACK!), graffiti that supports the "revolution" and militia that drives around from the Sandinista party. In short = I did not agree and the manipulation agitated me so much. It also reminded me how much Nicaragua needs PRAYER. So please be praying for Nicaragua and the people when you get a chance. The funds of AWANA's in Nicaragua has been cut. So pray that the LORD will provide a sponsor for them so that the kids can continue to have a safe place to learn and grow in the LORD like we have the opportunity to do here. (I felt like Nicaragua is one of the countries that is being forgotten) Although we did meet a group of missionaries whom had been doing a construction project. (which was both entertaining and somewhat encouraging...)
I also had drama.... but the LORD taught me something amazing!
2 timothy 2:3-5
3 You therefore must endure[a] hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4 No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier. 5 And also if anyone competes in athletics, he is not crowned unless he competes according to the rules.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20Timothy+2&version=NKJV
................to be continued
for some reason.. i am not sure... i miss NICARAGUA.. the people have made a huge impact in my life especially how even when they have nothing and work sun up to sun down to barely live... they are thankful and praise the LORD still! They pray for their country in place of complain and criticise... (which they will say the facts, but admit that it is in HIS hands alone) such faith! is something that i long for.
every time i leave and comeback there is a change. 2 milestones. in my journey. I do not know the plans that have been made but i do know of the hope that the LORD has given me and all that he shows us is to grow us.
women roles:
i know the bible talks women,
and their roles towards men
but women nowadays just want to dominate them
i know we have our places
which is important too
to be a servant thats our call
but to be leaders,we demand
we want to hold the reins in the left
and the home in the other hand
but
when we humble ourselfs below the other
pride slowly dissolves
then we find that the story is better
than what we thought up before
no cinderella fairytale can be made complete
unless the servant has a prince to meet
it is difficult, thats no doubt
but we continue reap rewards
holding on to our loving saviors hands
this way we can meet the demands
of life
people
clothing
food
all the things they ask us to do
we are Women whom GOD created
as a helper... to the first man,
Adam,
but even more we are their crowning glory
and whats best of all the LORD who loves us
can use us even more
when we are a servant
-that starts in the heart-
a servants heart is the best of all
we are called with a purpose
and thus we should
live with a purpose to love GOD and do good
to be
gentle
kind
humble
and pure
striving for holiness
to gain a servants reward
because HE said in His kingdom
"...the last will be first, and the first will be last."
{matthew 20:16
http://bible.cc/matthew/20-16.htm}
so with a humble heart and serving hands
we can take our place behind our mans
to love and serve the LORD
by supporting the Men of God
and encoraging them in the word
to stay true and faithful
to find our love together
the first
of love
which is
the LORD
~the Political corruption
~Actual demands of serving (and the patience it requires)
~how good it feels to ride on the back of a truck
~how dangerous the streets of Managua can be
~'the danger zone' and my nievity'...
The current corrupt political situation made me realize that I wanted to do something to change the government(for like the 1st time). It reminded me of North Korea when I saw how similar the manipulation tactics of the president(GRR!!). Through giant billboards with the presidents face( each with its own camera)(I LOOKED BECAUSE I WANTED TO PAINT IT BLACK!), graffiti that supports the "revolution" and militia that drives around from the Sandinista party. In short = I did not agree and the manipulation agitated me so much. It also reminded me how much Nicaragua needs PRAYER. So please be praying for Nicaragua and the people when you get a chance. The funds of AWANA's in Nicaragua has been cut. So pray that the LORD will provide a sponsor for them so that the kids can continue to have a safe place to learn and grow in the LORD like we have the opportunity to do here. (I felt like Nicaragua is one of the countries that is being forgotten) Although we did meet a group of missionaries whom had been doing a construction project. (which was both entertaining and somewhat encouraging...)
I also had drama.... but the LORD taught me something amazing!
2 timothy 2:3-5
3 You therefore must endure[a] hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4 No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier. 5 And also if anyone competes in athletics, he is not crowned unless he competes according to the rules.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20Timothy+2&version=NKJV
................to be continued
for some reason.. i am not sure... i miss NICARAGUA.. the people have made a huge impact in my life especially how even when they have nothing and work sun up to sun down to barely live... they are thankful and praise the LORD still! They pray for their country in place of complain and criticise... (which they will say the facts, but admit that it is in HIS hands alone) such faith! is something that i long for.
every time i leave and comeback there is a change. 2 milestones. in my journey. I do not know the plans that have been made but i do know of the hope that the LORD has given me and all that he shows us is to grow us.
women roles:
i know the bible talks women,
and their roles towards men
but women nowadays just want to dominate them
i know we have our places
which is important too
to be a servant thats our call
but to be leaders,we demand
we want to hold the reins in the left
and the home in the other hand
but
when we humble ourselfs below the other
pride slowly dissolves
then we find that the story is better
than what we thought up before
no cinderella fairytale can be made complete
unless the servant has a prince to meet
it is difficult, thats no doubt
but we continue reap rewards
holding on to our loving saviors hands
this way we can meet the demands
of life
people
clothing
food
all the things they ask us to do
we are Women whom GOD created
as a helper... to the first man,
Adam,
but even more we are their crowning glory
and whats best of all the LORD who loves us
can use us even more
when we are a servant
-that starts in the heart-
a servants heart is the best of all
we are called with a purpose
and thus we should
live with a purpose to love GOD and do good
to be
gentle
kind
humble
and pure
striving for holiness
to gain a servants reward
because HE said in His kingdom
"...the last will be first, and the first will be last."
{matthew 20:16
http://bible.cc/matthew/20-16.htm}
so with a humble heart and serving hands
we can take our place behind our mans
to love and serve the LORD
by supporting the Men of God
and encoraging them in the word
to stay true and faithful
to find our love together
the first
of love
which is
the LORD
Saturday, August 7, 2010
opening
Since I said I would blog.. (so that we can all keep in touch.. and i don't like facebook... ) here is my new blog.
I will update it as frequently as possible and please write back :) especially if there are prayer requests or praises or anything on your mind (clean of course... ) So i called this blog psalms 46 because it is one of the most comforting psalms i know.
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=psalms%2046&version=NIV
Take care God Bless and keep in touch! :)
I will update it as frequently as possible and please write back :) especially if there are prayer requests or praises or anything on your mind (clean of course... ) So i called this blog psalms 46 because it is one of the most comforting psalms i know.
God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy place where the Most High dwells.
5 God is within her, she will not fall;
God will help her at break of day.
6 Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
7 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
8 Come and see the works of the LORD,
the desolations he has brought on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
11 The LORD Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.
Selah
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=psalms%2046&version=NIV
Take care God Bless and keep in touch! :)
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