Happy New Year!

2012 has had a unique start, yet I am still effected from the year past. Isolation is a sentiment? I don't know, but weird thoughts come to mind as things get difficult. I am kinda sick of it. I know that this will be used for good, but right now this does not appear fruitful, and even more so in the opposite effect, dangerous. Through this I know I need to learn full dependence but right now ... i ts like a scream, from the bottom of my soul I am irritated. There is a leaf that has fluttered. It is winter and now has become cold. As the tree waits for the season to take it's toll the leaf flutters and continues to fall. It is silent and swift. It is determined and its determination begins to break as the wind directs the leaf through long and cold nights, morning, even days. Where it is heading not the leaf knows but tired it stays one. It is the product of a beautiful tree which bore its fruit of a productive year. Now the glistening green has disappeared. The color does not give the leaf it's beauty but now, the shape is full and skeletal. It is in essence the bones of the glistening green once alive. The leaf can flutter and maybe even help nourish a hunger insect but much has changed. The long journey through all terraces has tired the leaf. It needs it's sun, it needs its tree. As the Wind blow, it tries to stay whole, in one piece. But now all alone it sways. Depending only on its Wind. Its guide. Even the leaf knows though blown it will not deteriorate so fast. Blown by the Wind..........