new, new, new, and more new, college beggining

honestly, college feels weird. especially the first day, i couldn't yet accept it while also feeling left at a new place , trapped. I miss my family, friends, even life style.

allnighter, last farewell, before college. 4:49 am aug.26.2010

How many times i have thought about this day,
this time
this moment in my life
when i was young i used to feel as though this day would never come
but sooner or later
gotta
face
reality
the LORD brought me all this way
and by His grace i am moving to a new place
alive
hopeful
yet secure in His arms
i know he will never let me fall
although i do not know what lies ahead of me
i know he has a plan
a plan for good
to prosper
for a hope and a future
like it says in Jeremiah 29:11
my family
 my friends
my comfortable zone
in a snug little place called reston.
but no longer is this my place
instead its some where distant
my brothers and sisters in Christ are so encouraging
i can't help but know i will miss them
you,
all
but i know that ODU is my new call
can't hesitate anymore
in a couple hours its off to the open road,
3, almost 4 hours
until the finish line
no
the next step
in the story of my life
i have learned a lot and grown even more
but know what is
what was
is
different.
but in that way i will grow more than before
having only ONE constant
one HOPE
one TRUE love
who brings me the best of best
my HUGE family
THANK you LORD for your grace and how much you have blessed me
these 18 years of comfort-ability
and safety
continue to guide my friends and bless them
their families
network
friends.
continue to guide our hearts till we meet again
when ever your plan is
ready
set
go
we are off to continue this life show
of our stories
not an end
but a beginning

Saturday, August 21st 2010 : Vacation part 1- nicaragusen!

-While in Nicaragua I felt a short dejavu of when I was moving from 7th grade into 8th... only this time I was 6 years older. Being in Nicaragua reminded me how much i missed Latino culture, yet also reviled things that I didn't notice before such as :
~the Political corruption
~Actual demands of serving (and the patience it requires)
~how good it feels to ride on the back of a truck
~how dangerous the streets of Managua can be
~'the danger zone' and my nievity'...

The current corrupt political situation made me realize that I wanted to do something to change the government(for like the 1st time). It reminded me of North Korea when I saw how similar the manipulation tactics of the president(GRR!!). Through giant billboards with the presidents face( each with its own camera)(I LOOKED BECAUSE I WANTED TO PAINT IT BLACK!), graffiti that supports the "revolution" and militia that drives around from the Sandinista party. In short = I did not agree and the manipulation agitated me so much. It also reminded me how much Nicaragua needs PRAYER. So please be praying for Nicaragua and the people when you get a chance. The funds of AWANA's in Nicaragua has been cut. So pray that the LORD will provide a sponsor for them so that the kids can continue to have a safe place to learn and grow in the LORD like we have the opportunity to do here. (I felt like Nicaragua is one of the countries that is being forgotten) Although we did meet a group of missionaries whom had been doing a construction project. (which was both entertaining and somewhat encouraging...)

I also had drama.... but the LORD taught me something amazing!

2 timothy 2:3-5

3 You therefore must endure[a] hardship as a good soldier of Jesus Christ. 4 No one engaged in warfare entangles himself with the affairs of this life, that he may please him who enlisted him as a soldier. 5 And also if anyone competes in athletics, he is not crowned unless he competes according to the rules.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2%20Timothy+2&version=NKJV


................to be continued

for some reason.. i am not sure... i miss NICARAGUA.. the people have made a huge impact in my life especially how even when they have nothing and work sun up to sun down to barely live... they are thankful and praise the LORD still! They pray for their country in place of complain and criticise... (which they will say the facts, but admit that it is in HIS hands alone) such faith! is something that i long for.
every time i leave and comeback there is a change. 2 milestones. in my journey. I do not know the plans that have been made but i do know of the hope that the LORD has given me and all that he shows us is to grow us.

women roles:
i know the bible talks women,
and their roles towards men
but women nowadays just want to dominate them
i know we have our places
which is important too
to be a servant thats our call
but to be leaders,we demand
we want to hold the reins in the left
and the home in the other hand
but
when we humble ourselfs below the other
pride slowly dissolves
then we find that the story is better
than what we thought up before
no cinderella fairytale can be made complete
unless the servant has a prince to meet
it is difficult, thats no doubt
but we continue reap rewards
holding on to our loving saviors hands
this way we can meet the demands
of life
people
clothing
food
all the things they ask us to do
we are Women whom GOD created
as a helper... to the first man,
Adam,
but even more we are their crowning glory
and whats best of all the LORD who loves us
can use us even more
when we are a servant
-that starts in the heart-
a servants heart is the best of all
we are called with a purpose
and thus we should
live with a purpose to love GOD and do good
to be
gentle
kind
humble
and pure
striving for holiness
to gain a servants reward
because HE said in His kingdom
"...the last will be first, and the first will be last."
{matthew 20:16
http://bible.cc/matthew/20-16.htm}

so with a humble heart and serving hands
we can take our place behind our mans
to love and serve the LORD
by supporting the Men of God
and encoraging them in the word
to stay true and faithful
to find our love together
the first
of love
which is
the LORD

opening

Since I said I would blog.. (so that we can all keep in touch.. and i don't like facebook... ) here is my new blog.
I will update it as frequently as possible and please write back :) especially if there are prayer requests or praises or anything on your mind (clean of course... ) So i called this blog psalms 46 because it is one of the most comforting psalms i know.

God is our refuge and strength, 

       an ever-present help in trouble.

 ² Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way 

       and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,

 ³ though its waters roar and foam 

       and the mountains quake with their surging. 

       Selah

 ⁴ There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, 

       the holy place where the Most High dwells.

 ⁵ God is within her, she will not fall; 

       God will help her at break of day.

 ⁶ Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; 

       he lifts his voice, the earth melts.

 ⁷ The LORD Almighty is with us; 

       the God of Jacob is our fortress. 

       Selah

 ⁸ Come and see the works of the LORD, 

       the desolations he has brought on the earth.

 ⁹ He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; 

       he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, 

       he burns the shields with fire.

 ¹⁰ "Be still, and know that I am God; 

       I will be exalted among the nations, 

       I will be exalted in the earth."

 ¹¹ The LORD Almighty is with us; 

       the God of Jacob is our fortress. 

       Selah

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=psalms%2046&version=NIV



Take care God Bless and keep in touch! :)